I gave in -_____-

How can anyone that proclaims to be so happy and in love be so alone and screaming to the world that they want to be loved?

He texted me last night. For some reason I still kept it cool and collected. I don’t know if he truly had sincere intentions like he stated or if he had other motives. I kept the conversation short and simple even though part of me wanted a bit more. And I do still….want more.

I love you still, which is why I wish you nothing but the best. At times that’s all one can do. Say goodbye to the one they love as they walk into the sunset in hope that everything works out for the best.

You will be ok D.

You’re my beautiful destruction.

He’s happy with her. He wasn’t happy with me. He loves her. He never loved me.

How can one possibly still love, care for and long for someone that has hurt them so much?

Is it possible to go back? Can I? Should I?

Never mind. That opportunity will never present itself either way.

I miss him.

I hate that everything turned sour so quick and without any anticipation. We could of fixed so many things. We could of been THAT couple.

I hate that he moved on so quick. Did he really care? Did I really matter?

All I want is him. And for him to be back with me. He was my happiness, my only source of happiness. I have to be even stronger and I have to move on even though, I love him.

But apart from all the smiles and laughs, I miss him =(

I don’t want to go to sleep. Because if I do, that’s when reality will hit me.

If you ever see this…..just know that I love you.